I'm in a good mood. Or at least I was; I think I am more indifferent now. For once I found a pair of jeans that fit me fine enough fairly quick and for a nice price (usually I have to look for ages as I am not too fond of those tight things most girls wear - makes me very aware of the fact that the fat of most things I eat end up in my legs rather than my stomach, for some odd reason). When I visited one of the CD/DVD stores, they were playing some really amusing music. 'Twas Beirut, I discovered. Folk/Indie type of music, very beautiful. It was on sale so I bought it. I love it already. Nantes, Cliquot, The Flying Club Cup and A Sunday Smile are my favourites so far.
Just listen to it!
Anyhow, later I met up with some of my friends and drank coffee with them at Café Opus - well, I drank coffee, they drank hot chocolate, those betrayers. In any case, that was nice as well. We didn't stay as long as I once did (I sat there with two of my friends for three hours once!) since one had to go to work and one decided to say hello to her boyfriend, but since most of them are going away in the summer... it was good to say hello. The good mood didn't really hit me until I was on my way home after a trip with my dog, though.
It's so nice to be in a good mood. I rarely notice it, so it surprises me each time I do. I even almost, almost felt confident enough to confess to him one day. Of course, that was only almost and it lasted barely for a minute. Typical.
The ironic thing is that my parents currently are at a funeral.
I am at a loss for what to do. Education-wise, I mean. I want to return to Art & Design, but that means changing schools and taking the second year over again. At the same time I want to continue learning Japanese, not to mention my school has a really pleasant environment and I want to finish with this part of my education as quick as possible (even though it means that I have to choose what further education I want sooner). Art & Design is closer to what kind of job I want, though. Most of what I learn at my current school is languages, and from that you can become a teacher, a guide or an interpreter. I don't want to be any of those things. Illustrator or designer sounds much more interesting, and I like drawing. Languages are fun too, but not like that. What I really want to become is an author, of course, but I need a plan B, so to speak. Not everyone can become like J. K. Rowling, certainly not at once. Even so, it took time even for her to become that famous.
Really, what to do next school year depends on what I choose later, after upper secondary school. Illustration, writer studies or psychology, which I also want to study (although I do not want to become a psychologist). In one way the answer is obvious. I should focus on what can give me a proper job - illustration - and do the rest later or in my free time. I have my whole life before me, but at the same time I feel like I don't have the time, that I need to do the things now, before it's too late. Illustrator probably isn't the kind of job that would give you steady income, either. Also, I'm the kind of person who tends to focus on one thing only, and what I want to focus on is my writing, which means choosing either writer studies or psychology (which can help me create realistic characters). That would be three years of study (or more, can't remember if the basic study of psychology is one year only) if I choose both. Three years of study about something that might possibly earn me nothing at all.
I have no idea what to do.
